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20 September 2004 @ 11:46 pm
A 3 drabble set for open_on_sunday challenge #78 Telling Secrets
Author: darkhavens
Title: Confessing To The Family
Pairing: S/X
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be. No harm, no foul, no money made.
Summary: Xander wants to tell his 'family' about his secret relationship.
A/N: Thoughts are italicised.



’Willow, I want to tell you I’m in love. I want to tell you that I’m gay, well, bi, and I’m in love and happier than I’ve ever been before. He makes me laugh, he holds me tight and swears he’ll never let go and tells me I belong to him, forever, and I’ve needed that so much, y’know? I know you understand how much I’ve needed to belong, to have someone want me enough to say they’ll fight for me. And Spike would, y’know? He’d kill. For me.’

“It wasn’t me who stole your Barbie, it was Jesse.”


“Hey, Buffy…”

’I get it now. That whole loving the undead thing, I mean. Still don’t know what you ever saw in Angel, but, yeah, I finally get it. So, even though we’ve both acted like lovesick idiots over you for several years, I thought I’d better let you know that me and Spike are… close? together? doin’ the nasty? talking about that whole biting, claiming, belonging deal? Ouch. TMI. …’

“Buffster. I, ah…”

’I love Spike. I want you to understand and not try to dust him.’

“Buffy, I broke Mr Pointy yesterday practicing throws. I’ll make you another…”


“G-Man, I, ah...”

’I’m sleeping with Spike. I’m pretty sure you understand the guy-on-guy thing, because… Well, you and Ethan Rayne? Not so subtle. Of course, the guy-on-vampire thing is something else entirely. I know you’re gonna have trouble accepting that. But, please… Please don’t be disappointed, or disgusted with me. Don’t assume that Spike’s manipulating me, that he has a plan, he’s after Buffy, trying to kill us all again, because he’s not. He loves me Giles, and I love him, so please…’

“I dropped some pepperoni on the Latin transliteration of the ‘Chronicles of Darkness by D’Kar’. Sorry.”

feeling: coldcold
hearing: The Sopranos
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darkhavens: s that's the spot Xander [literati]darkhavens on September 21st, 2004 12:42 am (UTC)
Thanks. I love writing Xanderbabble, especially the internal stuff. :o)
I am Derek's vocal eyebrows: mk; trigger happy [me]literati on September 21st, 2004 02:57 am (UTC)
awwwww! ::tacklehugs Xander:: poor thing!
darkhavensdarkhavens on September 21st, 2004 03:02 am (UTC)
Thankee. ;o)
Nashnashmaveric on September 21st, 2004 05:28 pm (UTC)
I love these, the inner Xander!babble is very Xandery and sweet. So's what he ends up saying in the end. Poor pet, can't quite tell them can he?
darkhavensdarkhavens on September 21st, 2004 07:14 pm (UTC)
He meant to tell them, he really really did, but... *g*

Xanderbabble is fun to write. Thanks!
willshenilshe on September 21st, 2004 10:00 pm (UTC)
These are just painfully beautiful. He wants so hard to get the words out, but he can't quite make himself do it. It leaves me a little happy that he's got it good with Spike, but sad that he's afraid to tell. Beautiful work.
darkhavensdarkhavens on September 21st, 2004 10:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

I think he's just so used to losing things or having them go bad that he just doesn't have the nerve to say it out loud unless he jinxes them.