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09 April 2009 @ 06:40 am
Fic: "A Mouthful of Ashes", Supernatural, John, Sam/Dean
Author: darkhavens
Title: A Mouthful of Ashes
Fandom: Char/Pairing: Supernatural: John, Sam/Dean
Rating: PG-13
Words: 300
Concrit: Please. If you spot a typo or a grammar glitch, feel free to tell me in comments.
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be. No harm, no foul, no money made.
Summary: John finds out.
Warnings/squicks: Incest (off-screen)
Note1: Originally written for merihn's comment_fic prompt SPN, Sam/Dean, John always walked in. Edited to fit slashthedrabble's posting requirements, for challenge #204 "Over".
Note2: This spins off from havenward's earlier response to the same prompt, from where I shamelessly stole the succubus encounter and the idea of John using a 'charm'.


A Mouthful of Ashes

He's been fighting his suspicions since Sam tangled with that succubus, but they nibble away a little more of his denial every day.

Eventually, he gives in and pays a visit to a Voodoo priestess down in Charlestown, one whose work he trusts.

He leaves with a plain leather thong knotted loosely around his wrist and a promise writ in blood and paid for with the same. The closer his suspicions get to coming true, the tighter it will bind around his wrist.

He's always managed to get back to where he's stashed his boys before it's too tight to slip off with just little bit of effort.

#

Everything goes to hell when Jess dies.

He'd kept it as a reminder of his foolishness, his gullibility; a memorial to the rampant uncontrollability of teenage hormones. He's completely unprepared to wake one morning to find it lying snug around his wrist, no play left at all.

He stares for a while, uncomprehending, and then gets up to take a piss. Soon enough, his attention is caught up by the business at hand, and he almost forgets. Almost.

He's hot on the heels of the yellow-eyed son of a bitch when his left hand tingles and starts to go numb. The leather thong is cinching tighter with every breath he takes, cutting off circulation, sensation, and - if he doesn't act soon - his hand.

The skin of his wrist is bloody and raw, dotted with vicious little nicks and clumsy gouges by the time he finally digs the tip of his knife in deep enough to slice the damn thing off. It hits the floor and writhes for several long seconds; shrinking in on itself until it disappears.

Every nerve in his hand is suddenly aflame; he's choking on a mouthful of ashes.


 
The Huntress: Winchestershuntress69 on April 9th, 2009 05:52 am (UTC)
John needs to get a grip and maybe if he looks hard enough he'll see the love that is there between his boys and relax about it. Oops. I forgot to say I liked it LOL.

Edited at 2009-04-09 05:52 am (UTC)
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 06:10 am (UTC)
Thanks!

John doesn't want to see. He's happily in denial... until he isn't. *g*
e.madeofsequins on April 9th, 2009 05:52 am (UTC)
gah, lovely.
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 06:11 am (UTC)
Thanks!
Nev: spn: dean: head of the classnevcolleil on April 9th, 2009 05:53 am (UTC)
Wow. What a clever and original idea. Nicely done :)
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 06:12 am (UTC)
Thanks!

havenward deserves credit for the idea of John using 'a charm' to make sure he gets back every time before anything happens, but I picked it up and ran with it. :D
Sorry about your guitar: Shows:SPN: John shot downcityphonelines on April 9th, 2009 06:00 am (UTC)
Very interesting and smart. Liked it.
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 06:13 am (UTC)
Thanks!

(havenward deserves credit for the idea of John using 'a charm' to make sure he gets back every time before anything happens, but I picked it up and ran with it. :D)
hunters_retreathunters_retreat on April 9th, 2009 06:01 am (UTC)
Wow... wonderfully dark story of John trying to come to terms with the boys relationship in a way that John doesn't have to actually come to terms with it... Love the way this is written :p
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 06:21 am (UTC)
Thank you! :D

I can imagine him ignoring those nagging doubts for only so long before trying to find a way to make sure they didn't come true, without actually having to speak to the boys about something they hadn't done yet, but that he was sure they were going to do! *g*
Vaku: My Displeasure is Symmetricalvampireotaku on April 9th, 2009 06:02 am (UTC)
That was a very...'john' way of making sure his boys don't get it on. Support their love!

This was great btw!
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 06:23 am (UTC)
Thank you!

havenward deserves credit for the idea of John using 'a charm' to make sure he gets back every time before anything happens, but I picked it up and ran with it. :D

I think John is very good at denial, and also a man who knows his strengths. *g*
outsideth3box: FF Jayne Bitchoutsideth3box on April 9th, 2009 06:59 am (UTC)
You're sucking me in with your evil, evil... suckness.

Not the ficlet, that was really beautiful. In a very dark, scary way.

I love your way with words.
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 07:03 am (UTC)
ROFL! Thank you!

So... are you ready to start watching? *bats eyelashes*
skund on April 9th, 2009 07:07 am (UTC)
Awesome ficlet! Very in character and just... wow.
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 07:32 am (UTC)
Thank you! :D
aubergineautumn on April 9th, 2009 07:35 am (UTC)
Clever.
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 05:41 pm (UTC)
Thanks! :D
coren leecorenlee on April 9th, 2009 07:43 am (UTC)
A Mouthful of Ashes
Great fic! I rarely read short fics of any kind but I couldn't pass up a 'John finds out' story, and I'm so glad I didn't skip it :) You managed to get a lot of detail and intensity in so few words < patting you on the back >

Coren
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 05:49 pm (UTC)
Re: A Mouthful of Ashes
You managed to get a lot of detail and intensity in so few words

Intensity is exactly what I was aiming for. Thank you! :D
 Nayeli Honizrewillow_fae_20 on April 9th, 2009 08:03 am (UTC)
Oh, John... Poor, silly, misguided John. This was very intense. Due in full, I think, to it's length. I liked it very much.
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 05:52 pm (UTC)
I've been addicted to the drabble form for several years, but I'm trying to nudge my wordcounts up, bit by bit. Still, sometimes shorter is definitely better - one quick gut-punch is all it takes. ;)

Thank you!
tabaqui: johnsepiabyangstpuppytabaqui on April 9th, 2009 11:22 am (UTC)
Ah, John.
*pets him*
Nothing a man ever wants to really know. He would have been better off leaving it off altogether.
Good stuff, bay-bee.
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 05:57 pm (UTC)
Thanks, darlin'!

John just couldn't let it go, y'know? He thought he could keep them apart, and then convinced himself it was just teenage hormones, and then... oops. Too late. :D
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solar_cat on April 9th, 2009 01:22 pm (UTC)
Off screen. ;)
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who said what now? - solar_cat on April 9th, 2009 02:23 pm (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 06:06 pm (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - solar_cat on April 9th, 2009 07:22 pm (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 07:34 pm (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 06:05 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Lerah: reading is sexylerah99 on April 9th, 2009 01:05 pm (UTC)
Beautifully done! I love John being suspicious but not willing to talk to them and then having to face the truth and STILL not talking to them. So Very John! He is both a hero and a bastard.
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 06:13 pm (UTC)
He is both a hero and a bastard.

So very true. *g*

Thank you!
solar_cat on April 9th, 2009 01:18 pm (UTC)
Oh, damn. That was some very fine John Winchester right there. Very, very him. I love that he keeps it as a reminder, but he forgets. Beautiful. <3
darkhavens: sn papa demon [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 06:15 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

I don't think it's that he forgets, so much as he convinces himself it was all just teenage hormones running out of control and that he'd been silly to even consider that his boys were... misbehaving. :D
who said what now? - solar_cat on April 9th, 2009 07:18 pm (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - darkhavens on April 9th, 2009 07:29 pm (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - solar_cat on April 9th, 2009 07:41 pm (UTC) (Expand)