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13 June 2008 @ 08:49 am
Missing You, 2/5, Spike/Xander, PG-13
Author: darkhavens
Title: Missing You, #2 - The Crash and The Clash
Fandom: Pairing: Buffy: Spike/Xander
Rating: PG-13 for language
Words: 2x100
Spoilers: You know how Buffy ended, right?
Concrit: Please. If you spot a typo, please feel free to tell me in comments.
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be. No harm, no foul, no money made.
Warnings/Squicks: Deathfic, kinda, only Spike comes back from the dead eventually. :D
Summary: Xander misses more than he expected to after the loss of Sunnydale.
Notes: Written for stagesoflove prompt set #11 - Five ways to say "I miss you" (writer's choice)
Previous Chapters: #1 - Grief and Parting Gifts

For weeks Xander doesn't do more than move the bag from one place to another, too weighted down by grief and despair, by apathy and bone-deep weariness.

Then comes a burst of frantic energy that leaves him no time to weep or mourn or break himself against his memories.

One moment he's staring at a TV he has no recollection of buying, and the next he's on his knees in the closet, pawing through the bag, half-terrified by something that tastes like hope.

The disc's there, just as he'd thought, and there's a crumpled, neatly written yellow PostIt Note attached.



If you're going to borrow a bloke's music without asking, the least you could do is put it back properly, you berk.

Knowing the lyrics to every track on the double album (Christ, I miss vinyl!) is all well and good, but there's no point mouthing the words if you can't feel them on the inside.

'London's Calling', 'Four Horsemen', hell, even 'Koka Kola' has something to say, and I know you're smart enough to see it, if you'll only look.

Don't go back to something just because you think you should, but don't get
'Lost in the Supermarket' either.

The 'double album' is, of course, 'London's Burning' by The Clash. For a deeper understanding of this double-drabble, the lyrics of the above named tracks, 'London's Calling', 'Four Horsemen', 'Koka Kola' and 'Lost in the Supermarket' should be read while keeping in mind both Spike and, especially for the last one, Xander.

#3 - New Leather Versus Old Rubber and Plastic

Devo79devo79 on June 13th, 2008 08:10 am (UTC)
Man, need more soon please!
darkhavens: sx a love eternal [literati]darkhavens on June 16th, 2008 10:44 pm (UTC)
Hee! Thanks!

I can only post one a week (comm rules), but there are only five parts in all, so only two more hurty ones to go and then the big finish. *g*
your royal pie-nessentrenous88 on June 13th, 2008 11:24 am (UTC)
darkhavens: sx kink [literati]darkhavens on June 16th, 2008 10:44 pm (UTC)
Hee! Thanks! :D
ladyvirgo1956 on June 13th, 2008 12:51 pm (UTC)
Why hasn't anyone noticed how much pain he is in. This is so sad please update soon.
darkhavens: sx otp yellow [me]darkhavens on June 16th, 2008 10:45 pm (UTC)
I can only make one post a week, as per comm rules, but with only five parts in all, it won't hurt for too much longer. And there will be a happy ending. *g*

I think Xander hides his pain well, and everyone else is hurting too from everything that was lost. But not for long shall our boy suffer.

iadorespike: Spike Brokendowndog by esseneiadorespike on June 13th, 2008 01:24 pm (UTC)
Missing You, #2 - The Crash and The Clash
Okay...yeah...still weepy. I must say, though, that Spike's comments from beyond are very cool. As if he's left a piece of himself behind for Xander. *hugs them*

Thanks, sweetie.

darkhavens: sx otp blue [me]darkhavens on June 16th, 2008 10:46 pm (UTC)
Re: Missing You, #2 - The Crash and The Clash
Thank you!

That was the idea. Spike knows that Xander lets himself be overlooked while he's making everyone else feel better, so Spike did what he could before the whole world went kablooey. *g*
Devo79devo79 on June 13th, 2008 03:32 pm (UTC)
Checked out the lyrics to Lost in the Supermarket and it just screams Xander!
darkhavens: x so damn fuckable [literati}darkhavens on June 16th, 2008 10:48 pm (UTC)
It does, doesn't it? Deep, meaningful lyrics for our Xander - no wonder he kept 'borrowing' Spike's CD. *g*

tabaquitabaqui on June 13th, 2008 06:08 pm (UTC)
Ah, i love. I love Spike still being 'there', even though he's not, really.
*hugs them*
darkhavens: s mine w claws [literati]darkhavens on June 16th, 2008 10:53 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

Spike would be there if he could. And he will. ;)
I am Derek's vocal eyebrows: ev; nolwe [me]literati on June 14th, 2008 01:07 am (UTC)
Pls to be giving me moar?

This part has given me hope, don't you dare snatch it away again! *tackles*

darkhavens: me - eruantale [literati]darkhavens on June 16th, 2008 10:53 pm (UTC)
*smooches you*

Thank you, Pookie! No snatching away of hope here, nosirree. Just a long, drawn-out wait for the end. *g*
laazikaatlaazikaat on June 14th, 2008 07:36 am (UTC)

Enough sad. Waiting for the happy now please?

*puppy dog eyes*
darkhavens: sx wall otp [literati]darkhavens on June 16th, 2008 10:55 pm (UTC)
Sowwee, you gotta wait another couple of weeks or so for the happy ending, but it's coming, I promise. :D

Thank you!

(I love the puppydog eyes on your kitty icon. *g*)
Maz: Dovethismaz on June 14th, 2008 08:03 am (UTC)
It's sad how Xander's hurting, but Spike's voice is so immediate that even without the reassurance in the warning note, somehow I'd still feel hopeful. *is hopeful*
*looks around*
*goes back to waiting patiently*
darkhavens: sx kink [literati]darkhavens on June 16th, 2008 10:57 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

Your patience will be rewarded... eventually. *g*

Spike knew what he was doing when he left little notes scattered about. ;)
kitty_poker1: Silver Spander by literatikitty_poker1 on June 22nd, 2008 06:50 pm (UTC)
Oh, poor boy! ...half-terrified by something that tastes like hope. *hugs half-terrified, half-hopeful Xander*
darkhavens: sx otp yellow [me]darkhavens on June 24th, 2008 08:21 pm (UTC)
Hee! Thankee! :D
outofmymindbebackshortlydarthsindel1981 on June 28th, 2008 10:32 pm (UTC)
darkhavensdarkhavens on June 28th, 2008 11:34 pm (UTC)
outsideth3box: Vamp Spike and Xanderoutsideth3box on June 29th, 2008 07:21 pm (UTC)
Here's where Spike and I part ways, because I so do NOT miss vinyl, bleh.

I'm all teary though. Spike doing his level best, in his own Spike Way, to help Xander through what Spike knows is coming.


darkhavens: sx kink [literati]darkhavens on July 1st, 2008 09:59 pm (UTC)
Hee! Spike misses vinyl and a whole lot of other stuff he's seen come and go. (Quill pens were so much more elegant than common plastic biros. *g*)

^^^pets you^^^ :D
Goes "Ding" When There's Stuffsuki_blue on July 4th, 2008 07:41 pm (UTC)
Where are my free tissues?
darkhavensdarkhavens on July 8th, 2008 05:40 am (UTC)
*mails them to you, express*

Hee! Thankee :D