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07 June 2008 @ 04:51 am
Missing You, 1/5, Spike/Xander, PG-13 for now
Author: darkhavens
Title: Missing You, #1 - Grief and Parting Gifts
Fandom: Pairing: Buffy: Spike/Xander
Rating: PG-13 for language
Words: 2x100
Spoilers: You know how Buffy ended, right?
Concrit: Please. If you spot a typo, please feel free to tell me in comments.
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be. No harm, no foul, no money made.
Warnings/Squicks: Deathfic, kinda, only Spike comes back from the dead eventually. :D
Summary: Xander misses more than he expected to after the loss of Sunnydale.
Notes: Written for stagesoflove prompt set #11 - Five ways to say "I miss you" (writer's choice)

Grief and Parting Gifts

When they finally found a motel that could take them all, the girls grabbed their bags from the luggage space and staggered inside in almost silent clumps of two and three.

Xander stood back and let them scuffle amongst themselves, content to retrieve his stuff once they were gone.

He wasn't expecting to find two bags - the one he vaguely remembered packing, between miniature panic attacks, and the one that had disappeared somewhere around the last time Spike had been under his roof.

The ache in his chest was unexpected. Sure, he was grieving for Anya, but… Spike? Apparently so.



I'd say I'm sorry for nicking your bag, but we both know I'd be lying.

I knew you'd get it back anyway, especially after I got a look at that shiny bauble the wanker delivered. A flash piece of kit like that always carries a hefty price tag, and it was my turn to pay the piper.

But enough of this maudlin shite; what's done's done.

I don't have much to show for over a hundred years of hellraising existence, but what I have is yours. If nothing else it's got to be worth more than those stupid bloody plates.

#2 - The Crash and The Clash

I am Derek's vocal eyebrows: rg; bc [me]literati on June 7th, 2008 04:09 am (UTC)

You heartbreaker. So beautiful.
darkhavens: sx a love eternal [literati]darkhavens on June 7th, 2008 04:17 am (UTC)
Thank you! *smooches*

You know I fix it all eventually, right? ;)
iadorespike: Spike Chosen flame by jadediconsiadorespike on June 7th, 2008 04:54 am (UTC)
Missing You, #1 - Grief and Parting Gifts
Fine. Now I'm weepy. :(

*eyes you*
darkhavens: sx just one taste [literati]darkhavens on June 7th, 2008 04:57 am (UTC)
Re: Missing You, #1 - Grief and Parting Gifts
^^^pets you^^^

You know Spike pops up again, large as life and twice as obnoxious. Xander just has to miss him for three more posts before he finds that out. ;)

Very appropriate icon, btw. *g*
outsideth3box: Preying Mantisoutsideth3box on June 7th, 2008 05:23 am (UTC)
You have me stuck on the "Awwww!" setting tonight, heee.

This is sadness. Xander has new, Spike-shaped, pain, poor baby.

darkhavens: s bite me - vamp [literati]darkhavens on June 7th, 2008 05:30 am (UTC)
Yes! But I will fix it eventually, I promise. :D

laazikaatlaazikaat on June 7th, 2008 05:37 am (UTC)

Always so pleased when your muse is lured back to the true path. Your Spander is always dived on with delight.

I like where this is heading. Uh..it is heading where I think, yeah? You're going to make it better with Happy Endings and puppy dogs and smoochies?
darkhavens: sx wall otp [literati]darkhavens on June 7th, 2008 05:49 am (UTC)
Thank you!

Believe me, I am happy that my muse is back at all! :d

And of course it's heading where you think it is. We all know Spike will come back eventually, we just have to get through 3 more posts of Xander missing him in various ways. *g*
ladyvirgo1956 on June 7th, 2008 06:02 am (UTC)
That was so Spike. And Xander missing him so sad. Great job.
darkhavens: sx kink [literati]darkhavens on June 9th, 2008 12:20 am (UTC)
Thank you! :D
Maz: Dovethismaz on June 7th, 2008 06:15 am (UTC)
Sweet. Not in a sentimental or sugary sense, but a mellow, regretful, not quite recognised sense. Very sweet.
darkhavens: sx otp yellow [me]darkhavens on June 9th, 2008 12:24 am (UTC)
Thank you. Xander is just realising that Spike was a bigger part of his life than he thought. Stay tuned for more. :D
tabaqui: spikefirebygilkurtistabaqui on June 7th, 2008 03:55 pm (UTC)
*sniffles hard*
darkhavens: s grr? [literati]darkhavens on June 9th, 2008 12:25 am (UTC)

You know I'll fix it eventually though, right? :D
who said what now? - tabaqui on June 9th, 2008 02:26 am (UTC) (Expand)
Kristintxrabbit on June 7th, 2008 04:21 pm (UTC)
Lovely. Heartbreaking.
darkhavens: s mine w claws [literati]darkhavens on June 9th, 2008 12:26 am (UTC)
Thank you! I will fix it at the end though. I can't leave my boy(s) sad and lonely.
aimeelicious: xandersun_byeomiraimeelicious on June 7th, 2008 05:17 pm (UTC)
Sigh. I just...will always have this big space in my heart for Spike & Xander, together as lovers and/or friends and/or wary colleagues. They are so....you know! Sorry for being incoherent. Looking forward to reading the rest of this =)
darkhavens: x mortal flesh - mini gif [literati]darkhavens on June 9th, 2008 12:27 am (UTC)
Thank you!

Incoherent is good! It's a sign I hit some of the right buttons. *g*
takhentakhen on June 11th, 2008 05:00 am (UTC)
Oh cry.... Brought tears to my eyes.
darkhavens: sx just one taste [literati]darkhavens on June 24th, 2008 08:19 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :D

*gives you a tissue*

*is distracted by your bouncing heffalump*
~Alice~vinniebatman on June 11th, 2008 07:36 pm (UTC)
Wow, a good start to change Xander's view on Spike.

Very nice.

darkhavens: sx kink [literati]darkhavens on June 24th, 2008 08:19 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :D
your royal pie-ness: buffyverse: s/x wtf?entrenous88 on June 13th, 2008 11:22 am (UTC)
Ahhh, the Babylon 5 plates! <3
darkhavens: sx otp blue [me]darkhavens on June 24th, 2008 08:20 pm (UTC)
Yis! Hee! You know they were packed safely away inside his 'leaving Sunnydale' kit. :D
kitty_poker1: Silver Spander by literatikitty_poker1 on June 22nd, 2008 06:46 pm (UTC)
*sniffle* Make it better soon, please? *more sniffles*
darkhavens: sx a love eternal [literati]darkhavens on June 24th, 2008 08:18 pm (UTC)
I will,just a little bit over a week left before the happy kicks in. *g*

outofmymindbebackshortlydarthsindel1981 on June 28th, 2008 10:31 pm (UTC)
short and sweet but making me want to read the rest asap
darkhavensdarkhavens on June 28th, 2008 11:34 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :D
Goes "Ding" When There's Stuffsuki_blue on July 4th, 2008 07:39 pm (UTC)
Oh god, my heart.
darkhavensdarkhavens on July 8th, 2008 05:39 am (UTC)
{{{smishes}}} :D