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05 June 2006 @ 04:58 am
Swings and Roundabouts, 3/7, Dean/Sam
Author: darkhavens
Title: Swings and Roundabouts, 3/7
Pairing: Dean/Sam
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: PG-13 for now
Words: 527
Warnings: Non-graphic Wincest
Feedback/Concrit: darkhavens @ slashverse.com
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be. No harm, no foul, no money made.
Spoilers: References events in 1x14 Nightmares.
Notes: Written for stagesoflove 2006, Round 3, 'Seven Deadly Sins' and 'Seven Heavenly Virtues', stage #3 - Envy // Justice.
#1 Pride // Faith, #2 Gluttony // Temperance.

Envy // Justice

Dean tosses the spoon end over end and watches it bounce off the multi-layered covering of Sam's chest. Sam doesn't even flinch, just keeps on reading.

"Dude, you should be working it, not trying to pretend it doesn't exist!"

Sam continues to ignore him.

"I don't believe you, Sammy! You've been given a gift, a goddamn weapon uniquely suited to the job we're doing here, and you are wasting it! You should - I don't know - train for the day you need to use it. If it was me, I'd be…"

Sam slams his book down on the table and twists in his chair to glare at Dean, as he lies stretched out on their bed.

"You'd be what, Dean? Halfway to Vegas?"

A flicker of eyelashes is Dean's only reaction to having his earlier, tension-easing joke thrown back in his face. Surely Sam knew he hadn't been serious, right?

Sam doesn't pause to let him answer.

"You'd make a killing, Dean. No more penny ante pool hustling or backroom poker games. You could make that roulette ball dance the tango if you wanted. Yeah, I know exactly what you'd do with this gift if you had it."

Sam lifts shaking hands to massage his temples, and the ball of indignant rage in Dean's chest crumbles into dust and drifts away on his sigh.

"If I could cut this out and hand it to you, Dean, I…" Sam's shoulders slump in defeat. "I wouldn't. I'm not that cruel. Do you have any real idea what it's like? I watched you die, man. Max put a bullet between your eyes and your brains were splattered across the wall like cherry Jell-O. How do you think that made me feel?"

"Sam, I…"

Dean's hand hovers in the empty space between them, offering apology, comfort and understanding. Sam studies it dispassionately.

"I know I have to figure this out, Dean. Hitting out in anger's not the answer. I want to learn how to control it, I really do, but when I think about Max and what it did to him…"

Sam's moving as he's talking, and by the time his voice fades into nothing he's standing next to the bed, fingers tangled tightly with Dean's. Dean gives a tug and hauls him down to lie beside him on the bleach-stained bedspread.

"You're an idiot, you know that?"

Dean catches Sam's other hand as he tries to land a swat on Dean's uppermost thigh.

"It wasn't his gift that made Max what he was, that was down to his fucked up family. You were raised up to know right from wrong - to only use force against the enemy. Jesus, Sammy, you were going off to law school. Justice, impartiality, equity. This ringing any bells for you, dude? Once you've got a handle on this thing, do you seriously think you'd ever use it to hit out in anger? That's not you."

Sam allows Dean to tangle them into their accustomed sleeping knot, and then closes his eyes.

"We'll call Missouri in the morning, okay, Sam?"

Sam's agreeable hum fades into a quiet, peaceful snore. Dean lies awake and worries.

Anger // Prudence

The Grammarian about whom your mother warned you.acostilow on June 5th, 2006 04:24 am (UTC)
Oh, boys. *cuddles her boys*

It's been so long since I left any feedback, but you know how I feel about your writing. It's awesome and makes the baby Jesus happy. :D And this was just so sweet and poignant and all sorts of other good stuff. Yes.
darkhavens: sn no hugging [literati]darkhavens on June 26th, 2006 05:18 am (UTC)
Aw, now I feel even more guilty for taking so long to answer my fb. *scuffs toes in dirt*

Thank you, darlin'!

These boys are so very versatile - sweet, poignant, angsty, porny, adventurous... *happy sigh* :D
katbcollkatbcoll on June 5th, 2006 04:26 am (UTC)
This... It's amazing. You do so much in a few words. Blows me away every time.
darkhavens: sn pretty when bruised [literati]darkhavens on June 26th, 2006 05:20 am (UTC)
Thank you! (still playing catchup *g*)

I'm trying to use more words but the short works just keep coming. Once I'm done with my challenges and 'thons and stuff we shall see if I can't write something with multiple Word pages. ;)
Someday you'll need to stand tall again: Supernatural - Dean Smileemella on June 5th, 2006 06:55 am (UTC)
Awww! I love this little series and the image of the boys being so cuddly is just awesomely adorable. Nice job, I really like this. :)
darkhavens: sn feral [literati]darkhavens on June 26th, 2006 05:21 am (UTC)
(So so late catching up on feedback. Profuse apologies!)

Thanks! I think they grew up getting their cuddles from each other, and thinking of them lying tangled in a cuddly knot as they sleep gives me warm fuzzies. ;)
tabaqui: s&ddarkbygsd82tabaqui on June 5th, 2006 05:03 pm (UTC)
*snuggles you*
OOooh, yis. Lovely.
Poor boys!
darkhavens: sn feral [literati]darkhavens on June 26th, 2006 05:22 am (UTC)
*smooch* Thanks again again again. :D
kitty_poker1: kali_sama-brothers-smilekitty_poker1 on June 5th, 2006 10:26 pm (UTC)
Awww. I remember the ep and just, awwww. Lovely take on the aftermath.

Sam allows Dean to tangle them into their accustomed sleeping knot,

Did I say "awww" before? But Dean shouldn't have to worry. Fix it next time, yeah?
darkhavens: sn rowr [literati]darkhavens on June 26th, 2006 05:24 am (UTC)
I just fixed it... kinda. Dean's a little stunned, but it will wear off soon, I'm sure. *g*

I'm hoping they'll do something with Sam's superpowers in S2 so Dean can make jokes about him needing a cape like Superman. ;)

Thanks! *smooch*
MF Luder: SPN GPAmf_luder_xf on June 6th, 2006 03:28 am (UTC)
*hums happily*

That was lovely. Great Sam there.
darkhavens: sn kink [literati]darkhavens on June 26th, 2006 05:26 am (UTC)
(So so late catching up on feedback. Profuse apologies!)

Thank you! Sam can be whiny sometimes, but he's still a hero and you know he'd never think of wishing his 'gift' on Dean, or anyone else - it hurts too much. {{smishes him}}
Skywalker-Winchester: Ford & Hamill cloex_brosluvranakin415 on June 7th, 2006 06:42 am (UTC)
this is such a great series. i cant wait for the next part
darkhavens: sn eyefuck [literati]darkhavens on June 26th, 2006 05:27 am (UTC)
Thanks! Part 6 just went up. I hope it lives up to expectation. *g*

(So so late catching up on feedback. Profuse apologies!)
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darkhavens: sn phone [literati]darkhavens on June 26th, 2006 05:28 am (UTC)
Thanks! I think Dean is a secret worrier, but he'd spit in your eye before admitting it. *g*
     Mandya_phoenixdragon on June 19th, 2006 03:35 pm (UTC)
I know I'm late with it - but this sooo deserved FB!!!

I love Sam in a crisis - and I love the way that only Dean can make it all better...

This was a fun read, honey!! More, more!

darkhavens: sn kink [literati]darkhavens on June 26th, 2006 05:31 am (UTC)
Thank you! More just went up. :D

Sam in a crisis is a wonderful thing to watch, and Dean is like a mother hen with attitude. *g*
I am Derek's vocal eyebrows: sn; kaz side [me]literati on July 15th, 2006 03:00 am (UTC)
aww! that hit my h/c spot.

Very lovely!