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26 April 2006 @ 04:57 am
Fundamentally Altered, 5/5, Sam/Dean
Author: darkhavens
Title: Fundamentally Altered, 5/5
Pairing: Sam Winchester/Dean Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: NC-17 overall
Words: 365 (1450 in total)
Feedback/Concrit: darkhavens @ slashverse.com
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be. No harm, no foul, no money made.
Warnings/Squicks: Graphic Wincest
Summary: Repeated near-death experience would affect us all.
Notes: Written for stagesoflove 2006, Round 2, 'Five Stages of Sexual Arousal', stage #5 - resolution.
Also posted here.
Stage #1 - Desire, stage #2 - Excitement, stage #3 - Plateau of Arousal, stage #4 - Orgasm.

You can start from the beginning, Desire, (all stages are linked internally,) or read the final stage here.



The adrenaline has faded and the urgency is quashed now the edge is off your hunger, at least for the moment. You can feel every tremble as it works through his frame, every muffled sob and sigh, every half-assed attempt to pull away. You're not having that shit, not now.

You keep him close and turn you both towards the car, and he lets you lead without a word. That freaks you out - he's never been the biddable type; he always manages to ask that one question you've not thought to find the answer for. He's good at that.

The ride back to the motel is made in total silence. He's pressed so hard against the door he's almost hanging out the window. It's not as funny as it should be.

It's ten feet from the door to the bathroom, but you could swear he covers it in one stride. You hear the bolt snick home before you've even put your bag down.

The loud pounding of the water doesn't muffle all the sobs.

You peel down to shorts and tee shirt and you wait, stripping down the guns you used tonight and cleaning them.

You try your best not to react to the way he doesn't look at you - not once - when he comes out. Instead, you take your turn under the showerhead, sluicing off the only proof you have of what you've done.

It disappears in an instant.

The towel is rough again your skin; you use it violently, trying to flay the guilt from your soul with cheap cotton. It doesn't work.

When you come out, he's turned away from you, curled in on himself, in a knot. You take the other bed.



You're not sure what time it is when you feel the blankets lift, feel that long, gangly body easing in behind you. It's been forever since you touched.

You feel his curls on your neck; hear him whispering apologies, lips warm against your nape.

Your answer is the tangling of your fingers with his, the intertwining of your legs with his longer limbs. You braid your flesh with his so tightly you will never get free.


 
Valerie: Sam and Deangaladrielriver on April 26th, 2006 04:20 am (UTC)

First?

Firrrrssst!

Okay this...

Your answer is the tangling of your fingers with his, the intertwining of your legs with his longer limbs. You braid your flesh with his so tightly you will never get free.</blockquote>

That lump you see on the floor? Me.

You so killed me with that last paragraph.

I just love the desperation of it.

So other than that fantastic little series.

darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:19 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :D

I love the idea of them tangled up together like that.
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darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:22 pm (UTC)
Thanks! Writing them all as individual, yet connected, pieces was half of the challenge. I'm gald it worked. :D
moveablehistory on April 26th, 2006 04:38 am (UTC)
I've been looking forward to the completion of this series and whoa - did you deliver. *melts*

I like the way you weigh words. There's this precise tension running throughout and I like the way you resolve it in the end. The last sentence is perfect.

darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:27 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

I can spend ages flicking through my dictionary/thesaurus searching for the perfect word to make a sentence work the way I want it to. Actually, I can spend ages flicking through it, just cos. *g*
tabaqui: deangunbyillanwelltabaqui on April 26th, 2006 05:23 am (UTC)
Ooooooh, pretty, hurty...perfect.
Last line? Yisssss.
So, so lovely.
:)
darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:29 pm (UTC)
Thankee!

They so pretty when they hurt. And when they snuggle up together in bed. :D
a fiction worthy wind: Dean/Sam - SPNquietdiscerning on April 26th, 2006 05:38 am (UTC)
nnngh. beautiful.
darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:29 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :D
etty_kayetty_kay on April 26th, 2006 01:30 pm (UTC)
beautiful once again
darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:29 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :D
Sylph: SN_Sam&Deansylph_ironlight on April 26th, 2006 02:24 pm (UTC)
Mmmmmm. Wonderful, luv
darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:34 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :D
annaannalazarus on April 26th, 2006 05:28 pm (UTC)
I just read this series straight through and loved it. The last line just made me swoon.
darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:34 pm (UTC)
LOL! That's exactly the reaction I was hoping for. ;)

Thanks.
BridgesGotBurnedxxxbgbxxx on April 26th, 2006 07:38 pm (UTC)
I loved it, thank you for posting!
darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:35 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading and commenting. :D
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darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:36 pm (UTC)
Thanks, sweetie. :D
JediPrincessDSV: SDslashylookjediprincessdsv on April 26th, 2006 11:44 pm (UTC)
Just so incredibly good. All of it. Thank you for sharing.
darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:36 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading and commenting. :D
MF Luder: JPmf_luder_xf on April 27th, 2006 03:12 am (UTC)
So good, having Sam be standoffish, upset with himself at first...but inevitably coming back. Great conclusion. You have such amazing stories.
darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:38 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :D

Sam is such an emo boy I just know he'd need time to sulk and brood before coming back to cuddle. *g*
     Mandya_phoenixdragon on April 27th, 2006 06:31 am (UTC)
Oh my...

OH MY!!

This was beautiful, dear... Absolutely spectacular...
darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:39 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :D
Someday you'll need to stand tall again: Supernatural - Winchester boysemella on April 27th, 2006 10:38 am (UTC)
Love.



darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:39 pm (UTC)
*smooch* Thanks :D
Jakisbishlygay: Supernatural-Dean sick 1jakisbishlygay on April 28th, 2006 01:28 am (UTC)
Those were amazing.

they left me all speechless...
darkhavensdarkhavens on May 17th, 2006 06:40 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :D

Speechless is good. *hands you pen and paper, just in case* *g*
who said what now? - jakisbishlygay on May 18th, 2006 02:21 am (UTC) (Expand)