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08 February 2006 @ 03:50 am
'Closer Than Brothers' 1/5
Author: darkhavens
Title: Closer Than Brothers
Chapter: 1/5
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: PG13 for now
Words: 392
Spoilers: Set during the pilot episode. One line of dialogue, taken from the script.
Feedback/Concrit: darkhavens @ slashverse.com
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be. No harm, no foul, no money made.
Warnings/Squicks: Incestuous longings
Summary: Sam has an epiphany
Notes: Written for stagesoflove Challenge #1 - 'Attraction'. Also posted here.

Dean shoved him back against the rail support and leaned in close, incandescent fury in his eyes. That was all it took to get Sam hard.

In that split second, four years of urgent blowjobs in seedy nightclub washrooms, fumbling handjobs tucked away in shadowed dance floor corners and anonymous sex in rubbish-strewn alleys flashed through Sam's mind. And every slightly shorter, stocky, cocky, smart-mouthed pickup was suddenly overlaid with Dean's face.

It was an epiphany. Possibly the most inconveniently timed epiphany in the history of epiphanies, but it was his, and he embraced it.

Since leaving home, Sam had spent the whole time trying to find a new Dean, hunting him in shady dives and lowlife pool hall joints. Anywhere that looked the kind of place where Dean would go to hustle, Sam had jotted down the name to hit the next time he felt lost. He felt lost often.

He loved Jess, he knew that, it was written on his soul. She'd helped him put himself together once the rush burned off - the rush of freedom, independence, out here on my own exuberance. It had been a most spectacular crash, and Jess had been there ready with a smile, a gentle touch, a warm soft body wrapped around his own to keep the ghosts away.

Yeah, Sam loved Jess, but he needed Dean. He hungered for the touch of callused hands and scarred familiar skin, the closeness they had shared as boys, refocused, viewed through some obscene kaleidoscope of shattered, coloured mirrors.

How could he choose?

"Don’t talk about her like that."

Dean let go, stepped back and turned away and the world closed in on Sam, cold and cruel, leaving him vertiginous and shaky.

He was so screwed.


He was disconcerted by the sudden rush of lust and fear in Sam's eyes as he collided with the bridge support, but Dean refused to be distracted.

Plenty of time later to think back on this and wonder if the heat against his thigh, for that brief second, was caused by him or simply one of the side effects of being on a hunt again.

Plenty of time to lie awake and wonder, to marvel at the man who wore his baby brother's skin and sweet smile.

Plenty of time to decide it was safer to blame it on adrenaline.

Part Two

I am Derek's vocal eyebrows: v; bwl [me]literati on February 8th, 2006 04:02 am (UTC)

GUH! Perfection, babe. Just.. ::no words::

darkhavens: sn bed guh [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:31 pm (UTC)
Thank you, sweetie! *smooches*
Nevnevcolleil on February 8th, 2006 04:18 am (UTC)
That's perfect :D
darkhavens: sn blues bros [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:31 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :D
Ruricruric on February 8th, 2006 04:29 am (UTC)


snd *waves*

Good to know I wasn't the only one scrambling around at an obscenely late hour to post *g*
darkhavensdarkhavens on February 8th, 2006 04:36 am (UTC)
Thank you! *waves back*

No, you're not alone with the scrambling. Sometimes I look at the clock and go 'Oh, I have two hours left to post... I should probably write something.' And then the frantic keyboard pounding begins in earnest.

I had this scene in my head from the moment I signed up for the challenge, but until two hours ago, it wouldn't take shape. I knew about the flashback and the epiphany, but not how to get them out. And then I was all ready to post the first 292 words and Dean decided he wanted 100 words of his own.

Typical, huh? *g*
who said what now? - ruric on February 11th, 2006 05:04 pm (UTC) (Expand)
tabaqui: SupernaturalS/Dbynevcolleiltabaqui on February 8th, 2006 04:33 am (UTC)
Epiphany! Love it.
darkhavens: sn wincest [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:32 pm (UTC)
Thank you! That was the moment I saw the wincest, so I figured it was only fair that Sam got to see it then too. :D
Sylph: SN_texasboysylph_ironlight on February 8th, 2006 04:46 am (UTC)
Uuuuung. This was awesome, as a standalone or as a wip. Can't wait to read the next part!
darkhavens: sn brotherlove [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:34 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :D

This set is coming out wierdly wonderful. None of them so far have been quite what I expected, so I have to wait and see too. *g*
MF Ludermf_luder_xf on February 8th, 2006 05:00 am (UTC)

That was perfect! And there's going to be more it seems? Oh yay!! Nicely done.:-) Loved Dean's thoughts.
darkhavens: sn damaged [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:35 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

Dean just wouldn't stay quiet, he had to have his say. *g*
mistress_shinyla_vie_chanson on February 8th, 2006 06:01 am (UTC)
very nice, looking forward to reading more
darkhavens: sn eyefuck [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:36 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :D
Skywalker-Winchester: candy_girl82anakin415 on February 8th, 2006 09:27 am (UTC)
I am new to the Wincest group and this is hell of a welcome. What a chapter cant wait to read more.
darkhavens: sn eyefuck [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:37 pm (UTC)
Thank you, and welcome! :D
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darkhavens: sn feral [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:37 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :D

These boys have great chemistry. ;)
cazmalfoy on February 8th, 2006 10:24 am (UTC)
oh wow. i love it. that was fantastic. I can't wait for more.
darkhavens: sn KAZ2Y5 [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:38 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :D
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darkhavens: sn kink [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:39 pm (UTC)
Thanks! Part 4 should be up tomorrow. Parts 2 and 3 are already posted. :D
tyrical: SPN_Cappa8_D_against a walltyrical on February 8th, 2006 04:18 pm (UTC)
Wonderful. Lots of emotion and thought. Not a word wasted, not a thought left behind. The expression of need, want, reality, and realization crashing together in one powerful moment. I see Sam and Dean so wonderfully portrayed in this piece. Breathtaking.
darkhavens: sn no hugging [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:42 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

This was the moment in the pilot show where the wincest jumped off the screen and grabbed me, and when I saw this challenge I wondered what would happen if the same thing happened to Sam. And this happened. *g*
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darkhavens: sn phone [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:44 pm (UTC)
Ooh, cookies! Thank you! And thank you for the compliment. I know I'd slash the boys even if they weren't brothers, but that familial bond adds an extra depth to every interaction. :D
     Mandya_phoenixdragon on February 9th, 2006 04:37 am (UTC)

I think I love you...

On to the next part!!! *Squeeeeeee!!!*
darkhavens: sn pyro [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:44 pm (UTC)
Hee! Thank you! :D
belleimani on February 11th, 2006 01:52 pm (UTC)
So. So. Awesome. And you perfectly captured that moment in the Pilot where I knew, I KNEW, that no matter how much I didn't want to see the Wincest it was there.
And it was strong.
And it was good.
darkhavens: sn rowr [literati]darkhavens on February 27th, 2006 07:47 pm (UTC)
Hee! Thanks!

It was the scene that made my slashgoggles steam up. I had no problem with them being brothers because it was so obviously there. The familial relationship just makes it darker and deeper and more tangled. :D
who said what now? - belleimani on February 28th, 2006 12:00 am (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - darkhavens on February 28th, 2006 12:03 am (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - belleimani on February 28th, 2006 12:07 am (UTC) (Expand)