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20 October 2005 @ 11:23 pm
'Hurt', McShep, 668 words, PG-13
Author: darkhavens
Title: Hurt
Pairing: McKay/Sheppard
Rating: PG-13
Words: 669
Spoilers: Conversion
Feedback/Concrit: darkhavens @ slashverse.com
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be. No harm, no foul, no money made.
Summary: Rodney confronts a newly de-bugged John.
Notes: This is the first ficlet written for my slash_100 McShep Big Damn Table, prompt #63-Hurt.


Rodney finally tracked John down at dusk, on a distant balcony, and penned him into a corner with grim determination.

"I just don't understand why you wouldn't see me."

John blinked and focussed on keeping his expression blankly puzzled, intent on ignoring the unreasonable excitement that came with such close proximity.

"Rodney -"

"Don't. Did you honestly think I wouldn't notice? You out-ran Ronon and barely broke a sweat, just so you could gloat about it. You beat Teyla at her sticks with one hand behind your back, and don't think I don't know about that kiss. Really, John, are you always that clumsy in a clinch? That fumble did your Don Juan reputation no favours."

As John tried to process that off-hand revelation, Rodney frowned and ran though a mental list of notes.

"Where was I? Oh, yes. Ronon, Teyla, even Elizabeth. I know you spent hours talking in private with her, and yet I was prevented from entering the room on your orders. Why exactly was that, Colonel? Afraid I'd make a scene? Or did your inner bug decide I wasn't worth your time?" The flicker in John's eye would have gone unnoticed to most, but Rodney froze in horrified realization.

"Oh. My. God. That's it, isn't it? You had something to prove; that's why you took on Ronon and Teyla. Both of them have given your macho image a knock or two, and Elizabeth's your superior, at least on paper. But not me; I was never any real threat to your ego. Why would your bug think twice about a hypochondriac geek, eh? I probably didn't even show up as a blip on the radar. Huh."

Rodney's hyperactive brain immediately began reordering and recalibrating the facts to fit this new, hurtful, scenario.

For a moment, John watched the wheels turning behind blue eyes, every emotion visible to those who cared to look. The blooming of dull acceptance was what broke him.

"Jesus, Rodney, do you really think…? You couldn't be more wrong!"

John's hands were suddenly curled tight around Rodney's biceps, pulling the unresisting scientist closer, needing contact.

"Dammit, for a genius you really are dumb. I kissed Teyla because I was curious and I could, and yeah, it sucked. I didn't kiss Ronon 'cause, hey, I had speed, but I knew he could break me in two. Elizabeth was… Okay, let's not go there. You know I've never dealt well with authority figures, and the bug thing just made that so much worse. But you - I didn't dare get close to you."

The fabric beneath John's thumbs was warm and not quite smooth, and, absently, he began to stroke in time with Rodney's pulse. Rodney's eyelids fluttered and his pupils dilated. His tongue swept out and traced his lower lip and John groaned.

"I knew if I got hold of you I wouldn't let you go. I had just enough control to stay away."

A tiny crease formed between Rodney's brows at the admission, as though he couldn't believe what he was hearing. John resisted the urge to give him a shake.

"I wanted you, Rodney. I want you. And I knew if I got the chance - and you said no - I wouldn't stop. I wanted you so badly, under me, open. Powerless and begging me - to stop, to move, for more. Damn, there were times when I could just about taste you in the air… I wonder if that was when you tried to visit."

John paused, expecting a show of scientific curiosity, but Rodney was apparently too entranced by what he'd heard. His tightly beaded nipples, jutting out through thin blue cotton, gave John all the encouragement he needed.

"So, you like the sound of that, me holding you down?" He shifted his grip and scratched a thumbnail over one taut nub. Rodney shuddered, gasped and closed his eyes. "Oh yeah."

A tilt of his head had John's lips aligning with Rodney's just as the setting sun dropped away.
I am Derek's vocal eyebrows: js; wet [me]literati on October 20th, 2005 10:44 pm (UTC)


Very lovely but I want more. Now.
darkhavens: rodney oh please! [literati]darkhavens on October 20th, 2005 10:50 pm (UTC)
Hey, you chose hurt, I wrote hurt. They hurted! *g*

Thanks, sweetie.
who said what now? - wesleysgirl on October 20th, 2005 11:34 pm (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - darkhavens on October 20th, 2005 11:38 pm (UTC) (Expand)
slashfictionfanslashfictionfan on October 20th, 2005 11:30 pm (UTC)
OMG... "So, you like sound of that, me holding you down?" He shifted his grip and scratched a thumbnail over one taut nub. Rodney shuddered, gasped and closed his eyes. "Oh yeah."
Rodney was not the only one shuddering.. wow, how hot was THAT *fans self*

Plus the line "The blooming of dull acceptance was what broke him. " nearly broke me too...

and all in one story... I feel like it's my birthday and I got a rodney shaped present. Thank you.
darkhavens: rodney adorkable [literati]darkhavens on October 20th, 2005 11:55 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Happy un-birthday. Enjoy unwrapping your present. *g*
JaneDavitt: sheppardbyjivefishjanedavitt on October 20th, 2005 11:57 pm (UTC)
Got here from WG's rec and loved it. Great reasoning and a lovely, hot way to soothe McKay's hurt.
darkhavens: rodney adorkable [literati]darkhavens on October 21st, 2005 12:13 am (UTC)
Thanks! I figured there had to be a reason for the surprising dearth of R/J interaction in Conversion. Usually they're in each other's back pockets. It was too odd. It needed explaining and uncontrollable lust was as good a reason as any, IMO. *g*

And thanks for letting me know WG recced me. I always get a silly grin on my face when that happens. :D
who said what now? - janedavitt on October 21st, 2005 12:15 am (UTC) (Expand)
Explicit Adult Content? You're soaking in it!: guhyin_again on October 21st, 2005 12:02 am (UTC)

That was...


Me. Bunk. Now. Oh, yeah.
darkhavens: shep intense passion [literati]darkhavens on October 21st, 2005 12:14 am (UTC)
Hee! Thanks. *fans you*
Ceares: kiss auroras fateceares on October 21st, 2005 12:40 am (UTC)
Going with Rodney here...I definitely like the sound of that. Very nice-thanks.
darkhavens: shep look at me [literati]darkhavens on October 21st, 2005 01:09 am (UTC)
Thanks! :D
tabaquitabaqui on October 21st, 2005 12:57 am (UTC)
Ahhhhh, nice.

I like.

Help! I'm being sucked in!!
darkhavens: mcshep theirloveissooz [literati]darkhavens on October 21st, 2005 01:10 am (UTC)
Hee! Thanks!

*sucks harder* :D
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darkhavens: shep mcdaydreams [literati]darkhavens on October 21st, 2005 02:31 am (UTC)
hey, it's not warped to appreciate the pretty. *g*


*uses complementary icon*
Sandy: SGA Pretty Rodneysp23 on October 21st, 2005 02:34 am (UTC)
Oh, yeah. Certainly makes sense to me that was why he was never alone with Rodney. Loved it. :)
darkhavens: rodney who's sleeping w john [literati]darkhavens on October 21st, 2005 04:53 am (UTC)
Thanks! There had to be a reason, you know? Apart from the scriptwriters or studio bosses being asshats. *g*
Amanda: sg-a87gorgon_mythos on October 21st, 2005 03:37 am (UTC)
This story was just too good, love the passion John was speaking with. Good job :)
darkhavens: rodney oh please! [literati]darkhavens on October 21st, 2005 04:54 am (UTC)
Thank you! He just couldn't bear to see Rodney accepting that he wasn't worth bug!Shep's time. :D
Bluespirit: SGA *guh*bluespirit_star on October 21st, 2005 09:46 am (UTC)
Oh my - that was very, very...mmmmmmm...
Thank you!
darkhavensdarkhavens on November 3rd, 2005 07:40 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :D
Tonia Barone: Rodney--Is Geek Lovetoniabarone on October 21st, 2005 09:58 am (UTC)
Damn. Great work, as always. Damn. Also? Hot. Wow. Freck. I'm gonna go cool off now.
darkhavensdarkhavens on November 3rd, 2005 07:41 pm (UTC)
Thanks! :D
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darkhavensdarkhavens on November 3rd, 2005 07:42 pm (UTC)
Hee! *revives you* :D
Lalkhamsin-khamsolalpiratepurple on October 21st, 2005 06:22 pm (UTC)
Yum! Humminah... *drools*
darkhavensdarkhavens on November 3rd, 2005 07:42 pm (UTC)
Hee! Thanks. *passes you a tissue*
Davey: Nick Icon 3? - hot - mine [Caroline]ruggerdavey on October 22nd, 2005 08:16 pm (UTC)
Ho-ly shit, that was hot. Guh.
darkhavensdarkhavens on November 3rd, 2005 07:44 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :D
     Mandy: Beautifula_phoenixdragon on October 23rd, 2005 12:31 pm (UTC)
Oh! *Fans self* Oh, yeah! THIS was HOTTTT!!!! Love McKay, Love Shep (sometimes) - and especially love the goodies! Keep 'em comin', dear! *Blows sloppy kisses your way!*
darkhavensdarkhavens on November 3rd, 2005 07:46 pm (UTC)
Thank you! One down, ninety-nine to go. *flails*