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04 September 2005 @ 02:21 am
'Second Chances', last one for slashthedrabble challenge #41 - Again
Author: darkhavens
Title: Second Chances 1/1
Pairing: Sheppard/McKay of Stargate: Atlantis
Rating: PG13
Words: 500
Concrit: darkhavens @ slashverse.com
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be. No harm, no foul, no money made.
Spoilers: Everything upto and including Siege 2
Summary: If he had the chance to do them over again, Rodney might do a few things differently…

Second Chances

If he had the chance to do them over again, Rodney might do a few things differently…

He probably wouldn't have jerry-rigged his and John's mikes to let them talk privately, without the others hearing. John had never said, but Rodney was pretty damn sure he'd been distracted by a running blowjob commentary just before he'd run into that web and got his neck chomped. No, he'd never said, but Rodney knew - it really was just his luck.

He definitely wouldn't have made such a fuss about that MENSA thing. It wasn't as though he hadn't already known that John was smart and pretty. It was just the way it came out that made him mad enough to spit. Or, as it turned out, mad enough to use the environmental controls to turn a certain major's bedroom into a swamp. Hmmm. Of course, that had netted him a roommate for a month, until the moulds had been cultured and found harmless. But sleeping on the floor alone had been no fun at all.

Berating John for saving his life and that of the other scientists, not to mention the people in the mess hall, had been stupid. He'd ranted long and hard until, finally, John had turned and left, and Rodney had been stunned into inaction. By the time he'd settled down enough to chase after his lover, John had been indignant and impossible to please. They'd fought again and ended up at opposite ends of the city, sulking and trying not to be the first to back down.

And then there had been The Chaya Incident, which wouldn't have been so bad if it had happened any other time. But no, the alien priestess had to choose that very moment to try to steal John out from under his nose, and she'd nearly managed it!

Oh, yes, if he'd had the chance to do that hall scene over again, he would have latched onto John like a personal limpet and never let go. He would have kissed the idiot until he couldn't think of anyone else, and then led him off to his bedroom under her Ancient nose. That would have shown her. And John.

If he were composing his letter home now he'd know just what to say. He'd tell Jeannie about the love he'd found and how he understood. He'd tell her he was happy here; he'd tell her not to worry. He'd tell her he'd try to see her if he could, if he ever got back. He'd also talk about leadership and how John was his example. Or maybe not, that ego was certainly big enough already, and he knew Ford wouldn't be able to resist a chance like that.

But none of that was possible now; he'd never have those chances. And he'd never have the chance to say a real goodbye to John.

Rodney watched the glowing dots move closer, then converge, and wished he had a chance to do this over.
fantasyenabler on September 4th, 2005 01:40 am (UTC)
I don't usually like drabbles, because I tend to regard them as "useless teases," but I have to admit you crammed a great deal of detail into this quite elegantly and managed to capture Rodney's despair at that moment better than anything I've seen before. Also, it goes quite nicely with your icon, which I think is the first Rodney icon I've actually considered asking if I could borrow. :)
WesleysGirl: SGAwesleysgirl on September 4th, 2005 02:07 am (UTC)
Yes! What fantasyenabler said. *Pokes fantasyenabler suspiciously* I don't usually show more than polite interest in drabbles because they're always over just when I'm starting to get into them, but this was excellent. I don't feel left all, er, high and dry.

And the icon is gorgeous and one of very few I've seen that I just find mesmerizing.
WesleysGirl: Rodneywesleysgirl on September 4th, 2005 02:09 am (UTC)
Oh! And it's wonderful to see you writing in this fandom. Makes me all happy.

darkhavens: shep mcdaydreams [literati]darkhavens on September 5th, 2005 05:29 am (UTC)
Thank you!

You can blame kyrieane for my introduction to this fandom. She pressganged enabled me into McShep by providing eps for dl when my tv died and then kept pointing me towards fic when I fell in love with their snark. :D
darkhavens: rodney waiting for shep [literati]darkhavens on September 5th, 2005 05:26 am (UTC)
Hee! Thanks. The icon is by literati, was made especially for me and isn't shareable, but she is planning a multi-fandom icon post very soon where there will be goodies up for grabs, so stay tuned! :D
darkhavens: rodney waiting for shep [literati]darkhavens on September 5th, 2005 05:13 am (UTC)
Thank you! I started drabbling 18 months or so ago and I very quickly became addicted. There's just something about squeezing as much detail and emotion as possible into such a confined space that gives a sense of accomplishment, especially when I can lure in non-drabble readers and get them to enjoy it anyway. *g*

As for the icon - it was made especially for me by literati, and isn't shareable. I chose the pic and provided the words and then she worked her magic and gifted me with another wonderful icon.

She *does* make shareable icons, and I happen to know that her next multi-fandom icon post is coming up soon. She's only made one batch of Atlantis so far (scroll down), but more are on their way. :D
the variable fictionalization device: the endcustardpringle on September 4th, 2005 01:41 am (UTC)
Awww. *sniffle*
darkhavens: mcshep in trouble again [literati]darkhavens on September 5th, 2005 05:14 am (UTC)
*passes you a tissue*

Thanks! :D
I am Derek's vocal eyebrows: js; wet [me]literati on September 4th, 2005 01:59 am (UTC)
::sniffs & cuddles them both close::

It hurts, but in a good way.

darkhavens: rodney are you wearing it major [literatdarkhavens on September 5th, 2005 05:15 am (UTC)
Hee! Thankee. :D

Here, have a tissue. ;)
Alexmcalex22 on September 4th, 2005 02:50 am (UTC)
Wow, this is powerful. All the thoughts that come to mine before John blew himself up. I think you really capture the moment perfectly. Great stuff and hope you write more.
darkhavens: mcshep uhoh [literati]darkhavens on September 5th, 2005 05:17 am (UTC)
Thank you! I'll certainly be writing more. I'm falling for them further with every ep I see. *g*
Lilas: i'msosanepegasus_01 on September 4th, 2005 03:48 am (UTC)
*CRIES SOBS SPLUTTERS* This right after House M.D. 'Histories' which is the saddess ep ever and almost mad eme cry just makes want to cry even more...
It was WONDERFUL! Thank you!!
darkhavens: shep fly me [literati]darkhavens on September 5th, 2005 05:18 am (UTC)
Hee! *passes you a box of tissues*

Thank you so much! :D
rayne_y_dazerayne_y_daze on September 4th, 2005 03:58 am (UTC)
This is so powerful and so beautiful. There's so much more I want to say about this, but I can't find the words. This is just fantastic!
darkhavens: shep puppy eyes [literati]darkhavens on September 5th, 2005 05:18 am (UTC)
Aw, thank you! *hugs* :D
canadian_snoopycanadian_snoopy on September 4th, 2005 03:58 am (UTC)
Oh man, you really build it up to that last line, doncha?

Sad but seriously cool, thanks for sharing!
darkhavens: rodney waiting for shep [literati]darkhavens on September 5th, 2005 05:20 am (UTC)

I built it up knowing I needed a whammy but not knowing for certain what it would be until I was actually typing the last line. It whammied me too. *g*
Sam: Angel by Memoimoietmoi on September 4th, 2005 01:54 pm (UTC)
Awww! *sniffles*
darkhavens: rodney waiting for shep [literati]darkhavens on September 5th, 2005 05:21 am (UTC)
*passes you tissues*

Thank you. :D
it only burns when I breathe: mcshep_theend_chellespikedluv on September 4th, 2005 05:10 pm (UTC)
Oh wow. That was beautiful. And sad.
darkhavens: mcshep towed [literati]darkhavens on September 5th, 2005 05:23 am (UTC)
Thanks! :D

I really have to pop my McShep porn cherry soon. Angst and retrospection are all very well, but... Porn! *g*
it only burns when I breathe: mcshep_geeksmate_the_moonmothspikedluv on September 5th, 2005 06:41 pm (UTC)
Yes, um, porn would be good. *tries not to look too eager*

*fails utterly*
darkhavens: shep intense passion [literati]darkhavens on September 11th, 2005 02:08 am (UTC)
Alizarin_NYC: shep and rodney are pinky and the brainalizarin_nyc on September 4th, 2005 05:18 pm (UTC)
Tragic! And gorgeous. Great job as always.
darkhavens: mcshep in trouble again [literati]darkhavens on September 5th, 2005 05:25 am (UTC)
Thank you! :D

I don't think I've ever rated a 'tragic' before. I feel quite proud. *g*