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08 March 2006 @ 03:59 am
Closer Than Brothers, 5/5 Sam/Dean
Author: darkhavens
Title: Closer Than Brothers
Chapter: 5/5
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: PG-13
Words: 390
Challenge: #5 - Commitment
Feedback/Concrit: darkhavens @ slashverse.com
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be. No harm, no foul, no money made.
Warnings/Squicks: Not quite incest... yet
Summary: The brothers get closer.
Notes: Written for stagesoflove Challenge #5 - 'Commitment'.
#1 'Attraction', #2 'Romance', #3 Passion, #4 Intimacy.
Also posted here.

Finally coming together was like sliding naked into a heated pool - slick, all-embracing with a marked lack of resistance. A huge weight lifted off shoulders hunched so long it had become an almost natural posture. It was like flying.

It was like coming home. For the first time ever.

Dean, surprising them both, had been the one to break the conspiratorial silence that surrounded their growing closeness, their stolen intimacy. And he'd done it in bed, as the faintest early dawn light filtered in around the frayed motel curtains.

"We have to be sure, Sammy. Once we do this, there's no way we can go back. If it goes wrong, we can't just split and never see each other again. I think that might kill Dad. I know it'd kill me."

Sam lifted his head from Dean's shoulder and blinked until his brother's face shimmered into focus. He studied Dean's serious expression for a moment and then snorted, shook his head and let it drop back down.

"Dean, we passed the point of no return a long time ago. It's too late to second-guess this now. Is that why you haven't…?"

Dean twisted, pushing himself over onto his side to face Sam, and tugged his brother flush against his chest and thighs.

"We can't do this if you're going to walk away. I won't wave you off to Stanford with a smile and I can't go with you. I guess I need to hear you say…"

Sam spoke up quickly before Dean could lay himself any more open than he already was. He couldn't bear to see his brother so vulnerable, not when it was so very easily preventable.

"I'm not going, Dean. I don't think I ever was, not really. I just needed - space, you know? I wanted you to back off and let me make my own decisions. Took you long enough."


"Dean, I'm staying. I choose you, okay? I can't walk away from you again."

The kiss was messy, hungry, full of vows and promises they still couldn't speak aloud. But they understood.

The next town they came to, Dean got an extra key made for the Impala and presented it to Sam. Sam said it was as close as Dean would ever come to getting down on one knee. He also said yes.

I am Derek's vocal eyebrows: sn; nbcth [me]literati on March 8th, 2006 04:06 am (UTC)


so sweet and adorable.
darkhavens: sn brotherlove [literati]darkhavens on March 8th, 2006 05:24 am (UTC)
Thank you, baybee! *smooch*
Courtneyaldrea7 on March 8th, 2006 04:22 am (UTC)
Aww, my heart meltish. Glad to see Sam not being a selfish bastard for once
darkhavens: sn blues bros [literati]darkhavens on March 8th, 2006 05:34 am (UTC)
Thank you! Sam's not selfish, I don't think, so much as he is scared. He's been clinging to the idea that he can go back to being normal, but he must know he can't. ^^^pets him^^^ :D
Someday you'll need to stand tall again: Brokeback - Jake Existemella on March 8th, 2006 04:23 am (UTC)
Absolutely lovely. You rock the most. :D Awesome Job!
darkhavens: sn bed guh [literati]darkhavens on March 8th, 2006 05:35 am (UTC)
Thank you!

I'm kinda sad to see it finished, but I have an idea there will be more soon. ;)
MF Luder: apple pornmf_luder_xf on March 8th, 2006 04:48 am (UTC)
Squee!! What a good ending. So sweet and powerful. You're amazing!!
darkhavens: sn kink [literati]darkhavens on March 8th, 2006 05:37 am (UTC)
Thank you! I wanted them to each make a real commitment and they did. :D
who said what now? - mf_luder_xf on March 8th, 2006 05:47 am (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - darkhavens on March 8th, 2006 05:54 am (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - mf_luder_xf on March 8th, 2006 06:10 am (UTC) (Expand)
The Grammarian about whom your mother warned you.acostilow on March 8th, 2006 04:56 am (UTC)
Loved the entire series. Brilliant.

The last paragraph nailed it for me. Just...perfect. Absolutely perfect.
darkhavens: sn kink [literati]darkhavens on March 8th, 2006 05:39 am (UTC)
Thank you!

I think that's the biggest commitment Dean is every likely to make - sharing the Impala. It must be like handing over custody of a child. *g*
who said what now? - acostilow on March 8th, 2006 06:18 am (UTC) (Expand)
Sylph: SN_staresylph_ironlight on March 8th, 2006 05:16 am (UTC)
Mmm. Such a perfect ending. I reread these last night and was wondering when you were going to post the last chap. Wonderful.
darkhavens: sn rowr [literati]darkhavens on March 8th, 2006 05:40 am (UTC)
Thank you! I love hearing about rereads. It makes me very happy. :D
a fiction worthy wind: He Watches - SNquietdiscerning on March 8th, 2006 06:00 am (UTC)
*heart clenches*

That was so perfect! I love mush, and this fandom so doesnt have enough ot it.

*all warm and fuzzy*
darkhavens: sn bed guh [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:36 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

I think the 'chick flick' line has been used and abused and taken as a sign that Dean does not do mushy. Which is a shame, cos everyone should be able to have their mushy moments. :D
tayloredjusticetayloredjustice on March 8th, 2006 06:01 am (UTC)
your wincest makes me giggly and warm-fuzzy-y. or something. HOT!
darkhavens: sn blues bros [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:38 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :D

I'm sure there will be angst aplenty from me too, but this challenge brought out the 'aaaaaaaaaw's. *g*
tabaquitabaqui on March 8th, 2006 06:37 am (UTC)
Oh, yis.
And that very last little paragraph? Freakin' perfect, dude.
darkhavens: sn brotherlove [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:39 pm (UTC)
Thanks, darlin'! You know it's true love when Dean gives away a key to his baby. *g*
Entendre? Make mine a double.: Beauty Samdeirdre_c on March 8th, 2006 08:30 am (UTC)
Lovely story, so restrained. It makes me so happy when they're in love!

Thanks for sharing!
darkhavensdarkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:41 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

It's not often my work get called 'restrained' - unless I'm in restraints. *g*

who said what now? - deirdre_c on April 10th, 2006 12:32 am (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - darkhavens on April 10th, 2006 12:36 am (UTC) (Expand)
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darkhavens: sn damaged [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:42 pm (UTC)
Thank you! You know there is no greater show of love than for Dean to give away a key to the Impala. I bet he never let Cassie drive it. *evil grin*
belleimani on March 8th, 2006 12:44 pm (UTC)
So awesome. I love the whole feel of this series. Such a nice slow build.
darkhavens: sn eyefuck [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:43 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I enjoyed keeping it slow and subtle. It made me work it too. *g*
who said what now? - belleimani on April 11th, 2006 08:02 pm (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - darkhavens on April 11th, 2006 08:08 pm (UTC) (Expand)
who said what now? - belleimani on April 12th, 2006 11:12 am (UTC) (Expand)
WWDD? - What Would Donna Do?jellicle on March 8th, 2006 02:20 pm (UTC)
Commitment... the last paragraph was like, pergect, like one of the most beautiful things I've ever read.
A beautiful gift of love in a day like today.
Thank you for sharing this work of love.
darkhavens: sn feral [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:45 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

I think that once those boys have committed to something, they're in it for the long haul. What better to commit to than each other? :D
bury me in memory: sam00ephemerall on March 8th, 2006 04:25 pm (UTC)
This is so incredibly believable! You did an amazing job with this, and I really can't wait to see more.
darkhavens: sn KAZ2Y5 [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:45 pm (UTC)

I think I can say for certain that there will be plenty more. I don't see me putting these boys down any time soon. :D
who breaks a butterfly upon a wheellaminy on March 8th, 2006 11:41 pm (UTC)
Oh my lordie. So sweet. So perfect. And the last paragraph is to die for.
darkhavens: sn kink [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

I think the key would be the sign of Dean's ultimate commitment. That car is his baby! *g*
Dean's girl: SN-Dean/Hunteragt_spooky on March 9th, 2006 01:40 am (UTC)
Oh god, this was SO beautiful. The whole series was just wonderful and what a perfect ending. I'm just a puddle here. :-)
darkhavens: sn no hugging [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:48 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

*mops you up carefully*
Skywalker-Winchester: mumbly_mumpyanakin415 on March 9th, 2006 06:24 pm (UTC)

Bloody brilliant. Bloody fucking brilliant.

The key to the Impala pure genius. Love love love.
darkhavens: sn phone [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

That key means so much more than any engagement ring ever could. :D
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darkhavens: sn wincest [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:53 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :D

Those boys are keeping so many secrets, both from each other and, between them, from everyone else. This is just one more, but worth so much more than all the others.
chrismousechrismouse on March 10th, 2006 01:41 am (UTC)
I have to say, that was one of the coolest "proposals" ever. And so true to the characters, too. I saw a poll somewhere about which brother needed the other more, and it still mystifies me how anyone could ever think Sam needs Dean more than Dean needs Sam. Dean just isn't willing to admit it. Except that one time. "Yeah, but I don't want to."
darkhavens: sn damaged [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:56 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

And god, yeah. If I'd seen that poll my vote would have been for Dean. He really does need Sam more than Sam could ever need him. Dean's not used to being alone, he spent his formative years looking after Sammy and without someone (Sam) there to keep him together and in touch with the world, I think he'd lose himself in the hunt and start taking terrible risks.
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darkhavens: sn rowr [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:57 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

I had to have Sam admit that he couldn't do that again, and in my heart it was not only because of how much it hurt Dean, but also because of how much it hurt him to walk away. :D
     Mandya_phoenixdragon on March 14th, 2006 12:33 am (UTC)
Beautiful, honey!!! And what an absolutely perfecto ending!!!

That's it!! More Wincest is a definite must!!

*Drools helplessly...*
darkhavens: sn no hugging [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 10:58 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

Plenty more on the way, believe me. *g*
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darkhavens: sn eyefuck [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 11:00 pm (UTC)
Thank you! You know those boys have got to have sweet moments in them, no matter how tough they are on the outside. ;)
tyrical: SPN_togethertyrical on April 6th, 2006 11:27 pm (UTC)
Finally I got to read the last one.
I really loved this series.
It was thoughtful, poetic, and lovely.
I loved the ending. Really great work.
Yep, I made it a memory.
darkhavens: sn rowr [literati]darkhavens on April 9th, 2006 11:01 pm (UTC)
Thank you for the compliments and thank you for adding it to memories. That always makes me extra happy. :D
VodouBluevodou_blue on May 17th, 2006 11:43 pm (UTC)
Loved this bit:
It was an epiphany. Possibly the most inconveniently timed epiphany in the history of epiphanies, but it was his, and he embraced it.

Wow. Just…wow. You rock my night!
darkhavens: sn bed guh [literati]darkhavens on June 24th, 2006 01:30 am (UTC)
Thanks! (Sorry I'm so late replying to comments.)

Epiphanies such as these should be wholeheartedly embraced. :D
zenamydogzenamydog on July 9th, 2006 01:03 pm (UTC)
I have read so many of your stories, and you never cease to amaze me with your imagery. YOu are great!!!!
darkhavens: sn almost [literati]darkhavens on September 5th, 2006 06:46 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

These boys are such an inspiration. I'm counting the days until the 28th. *g*